- “There is a smell on you later, and silences and laughers that linger longer in the house and on things after she departed”_kalimelo
With the image of a Flamenco dancer woman on the cover of the pack of my first fine cigars I smoked, when I was fourteen, a teen, it’s like the first time you fall in love, you cough, and eye-watering, you discover what are cigars and women like, then you get the habits with them, with time, the comfort, the company, and then suddenly, and as always, departing is such sweet sorrow. She was a ballet-dancer, and I, a Fine-Arts student in Paris, later on, looking for a model, I discovered Degas, and pastels so delicate, and volatile, as she was, elegant and whimsical, that I spent hours and hours, watching her performing pirouettes, pas-de-deux, and grand-equart, so wide with your eyes opened that you can hung your Beret , and your hearth pending to her movements, holding your breath, a piece of chalk in one hand and a cigarette-Gitannes on the other hand the smoke-filled the air, and laughers, trying to fix that moment on paper, in despair, drawing as she moved, before it disappears, listening to Charles Aznavour_” La Boehme,” once alone, at home.
I had a tiny studio on La Butte-Montmartre, then, we were all time hungry, and broke, and I more than ever waiting for her, one day she never came. Tired, I went to Spain–Flamenco, Bulls-fighting, Frederico Garcia Lorca, Manitas-De-Platas, Cervejas, then from there, Barcelona, Maria Rodriguez, the Fado, and Porto on the Taj, transported by a bittersweet sorrow, but in fact it was her, a dream that I pursued than, that It was a fascination by the quest. Like no tomorrow
“There is a smell on you later,
and laughers and silences,
that lingers longer
in the house and on things,
after she departed”_Kalimelo
The other day, at a corner of street, a vanishing scent of musk, and tabaco in the air, transported me to Paris, to the clime of lilacs trees, balconies and wisteria of Montmartre, it has been longtime that I quitted smoking, Quartiers-Latins, and its bistros, and moved to New York. They say, you rediscovered the subtleties of smells, perfumes, as you had lost your odorant sense while you’re smoking, they say, but what do they know about lost love? Othello , Shakespeare _”Depart is such sweet sorrow,” perchance.