I prayed for grey
that the sun would go away
i prayed for rain.
I prayed for cold, i prayed for snow
housebound, to be alone.
mean it or not, plea or prayer
i prayed for strength – i prayed for fresh air.
i lesson to teach: how to forgive
a lesson not learned – a lesson believed.
unanswered words, were given to me
the only truth – which it could give
answer beyond, does not exist…
(shouting) silent and blood on my tips
rips on my fingers, sheets torn to bitts.
(chaos) inside lies peace
but inside is the one place i cannot reach.
I prayed for a storm
i prayed for the sounds
electricity, fire, water, clouds
shut my eyes, so hear the drums
playing loud where used to be the sun.